Sugar

Author's Note: I finally decided to update the poems on this blog. =)) These have been on my Deviantart for a while now, but I decided to wait a bit until I could figure out what I wanted to post here. XD So the next few series of posts will be old poems that I'm moving, starting with this~
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Trying to convince myself
harder and harder
that I'm still in love with you.
Through all the screaming,
I'll still find it in myself
to forgive all you do.
Because somehow, I know.
It's all easier than
to face the truth.

We both know
but can't find it in ourselves
to admit it.
I don't know if it's pride.
Or maybe we've gotten used
to the cycle we've fallen into.
Of screaming,
nights filled with tears.
Followed by a morning,
greeted by apologies
and kisses that taste
of the coffee you love so much.

But I now notice
how you douse it,
the once pure black mixture
with too much sugar.
It's far too bitter now,
you say.
Your taste has changed.

And now your kisses
are just too sweet.

And it makes me sick.