Author's Note: Erm. I hope I don't get flamed for this. But oh well. I was bored in Music class~ I don't really like it, but I dunno. I just started writing it. It came out. I dunno. o_O It's abridged, there are some stuff I really needed to edit, otherwise I might get a really bad reputation here. So yeah~ Not a direct insult to religion in itself, I'll have you people know, before some of you might go and lecture me. (MEH.) It's actually a criticism of how our society works. Just saying.
I wanted to try to make it non-rhyming. It's really hard. :\
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They stare at you
with piercing eyes.
Sharp as their swords.
As they speak of their one.
They tell you he forgives.
But condemn you to fire.
For any question you may raise.
And any different thought you have.
Everything is evil,
the world is full of wrong.
We should grovel for being human.
Worship at the feet
of their one who contradicts
all his followers teach
and yet no one questions
but no one really believes.
You can see it in their actions
in their pitiful human deeds.
They shoot down your intelligence
if it challenges anything.
Nevermind that he made you that,
gave you wisdom to think.
To make your own decisions,
to know difference is not a sin.
We were all given free will.
But they say we have to give it up.
Offer everything to their one.
Because he needs us to believe.
And as they speak of miracles
you wonder why they only happen
at random days to random people.
And not always to those who believe.
And need.
But still you'll go there and kneel.
And before and after every meal and day.
You have to wonder why he truly needs
millions to kiss his feet.
Before we all are saved.
And lastly still they say
you will have wronged.
For something that you chose to do.
Even if you hurt no one.
Because we all must think the same.
July 20, 2010
Unreal
Author's Note: Random poem I wrote in Filipino class. Inspired by nothing, and not personal. =)) Just a note guys, almost none of the shit I write are personal. =)) Quit asking, it gets annoying.
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People tell us we're perfect
and they just don't know
that if it were only that easy.
Then I would let you go.
I'm trying to ignore
the pain everyday
but it gets harder and harder.
And I still try to push it away.
Faking smiles and laughter,
telling you I'm just fine.
And again you never noticed
that tears came with that smile.
Screaming away the rage at night,
and calling out your name.
But no matter what I do,
it's always, always the same.
But I'll act like I don't know
about everything you do.
I'll pretend she's not real
and that you still love me too.
///
People tell us we're perfect
and they just don't know
that if it were only that easy.
Then I would let you go.
I'm trying to ignore
the pain everyday
but it gets harder and harder.
And I still try to push it away.
Faking smiles and laughter,
telling you I'm just fine.
And again you never noticed
that tears came with that smile.
Screaming away the rage at night,
and calling out your name.
But no matter what I do,
it's always, always the same.
But I'll act like I don't know
about everything you do.
I'll pretend she's not real
and that you still love me too.
This Time
Standing by the swing set
we spent hours on.
Today you're leaving.
Tomorrow you'll be gone.
Yesterday you said,
with a cold look in your eyes.
You told me you were leaving.
And said one last goodbye.
It caught me off guard,
and I choked on
what I tried to say.
Stumbled on words and tears.
While you quickly walked away.
There's a pen in my hand,
and I'm trying to find
a way to write down
The perfect words
that I need right now.
I don't know what's wrong.
And I really need help.
Because nothing sounds right.
And I throw it all away again.
And I look up at the sky,
And shouted out to try to ask.
For a way for me to do this.
To write it or to say it.
The most brilliant words.
That you'll just fall in love with.
You're ready to leave,
and you're not even turning back.
I try to run up to chase you.
But when you turned around,
I lost the words in my head.
I forgot every single one.
And as you walk away
with no regrets.
I'm left here asking myself why.
I couldn't even get it right.
Not this time.
we spent hours on.
Today you're leaving.
Tomorrow you'll be gone.
Yesterday you said,
with a cold look in your eyes.
You told me you were leaving.
And said one last goodbye.
It caught me off guard,
and I choked on
what I tried to say.
Stumbled on words and tears.
While you quickly walked away.
There's a pen in my hand,
and I'm trying to find
a way to write down
The perfect words
that I need right now.
I don't know what's wrong.
And I really need help.
Because nothing sounds right.
And I throw it all away again.
And I look up at the sky,
And shouted out to try to ask.
For a way for me to do this.
To write it or to say it.
The most brilliant words.
That you'll just fall in love with.
You're ready to leave,
and you're not even turning back.
I try to run up to chase you.
But when you turned around,
I lost the words in my head.
I forgot every single one.
And as you walk away
with no regrets.
I'm left here asking myself why.
I couldn't even get it right.
Not this time.
Snapshots of Summer
Couldn't hold back laughter
as we tripped in public,
Then we looked back,
and we saw and laughed.
That we stumbled over nothing.
Got lost too many times.
And refused to look at maps.
Asked directions from a guard.
Who refused to answer us.
Flipped her the finger
when she wasn't looking.
And then walked away.
She wasn't worth remembering.
Said a lot of stupid things.
And we eat far too slow.
And what happened to that dying guy?
I guess we'll never know.
And I came home with no money.
Because you made me spend a lot.
But I felt completely happy.
Because you're the best friend I've got.
~
2 sleepovers this summer,
and both we tried to stay awake.
And then we fell asleep and learned
we overslept, the very next day.
Watched our favorite series
for hours and hours on end.
Laughed until our stomachs hurt.
At a lot of things
the characters said.
Played games and we kept losing.
And we screamed when we did.
Then we cheated at Rush Hour.
Because we thought;
"Aw, to hell with it."
Made fun of all the people.
That don't matter at all.
"He misses me," you said.
And I guess he didn't have a clue.
That status message was for him
coming directly from you.
Squealing and sighing while watching,
and wishing guys like that existed.
Laughing at ourselves afterwards.
But saying; "hey, it could happen!"
And drinking too much coke
and wanting "that half of the donut!"
Those small bits and pieces.
Were what made all the difference.
~~~
Stopped over at your house,
And played a lot of games.
Laughing at the stupid fails,
and making fun of the Sims.
Ordered food and they thought
that you were a guy,
and you sighed and played along.
It was the same girl as last time,
and my God, she's still wrong.
Climbing up and down the stairs,
and making fun of that friend
that tripped down these.
And ending up tired
when we reached the end.
And trying to reach over
to get to the soles of your feet.
You screamed way too loud.
And wouldn't dare let me.
That late birthday present
was one of the best I received.
You probably have no idea.
How happy it made me.
~~~
This summer, I guess.
I loved the way
we talked all night.
Spent so many hours.
We talked about our lives.
We watched the night pull away.
Talked until it turned to day.
That night you got so scared.
By the sound at your door.
"It's probably a murderer"
But it was only your dog.
I laughed really hard,
but I guess I never told you.
That little did you know.
I was scared for you too.
Snuck around to stay up late.
Despite all my complaints.
To make sure I never got lonely.
And I wonder if you know.
How much that means to me.
Said so many random things
and hit you way too many times.
And thank you for letting me know
that I helped change your life.
~~~~~~
The snapshots of summer
play back in my mind.
I knew it would be great.
Now if only I could just
give this summer
a bit more time.
As the sunshine gets replaced
with droplets of rain.
Is it wrong for me to hate
that for now things
aren't going to be the same?
as we tripped in public,
Then we looked back,
and we saw and laughed.
That we stumbled over nothing.
Got lost too many times.
And refused to look at maps.
Asked directions from a guard.
Who refused to answer us.
Flipped her the finger
when she wasn't looking.
And then walked away.
She wasn't worth remembering.
Said a lot of stupid things.
And we eat far too slow.
And what happened to that dying guy?
I guess we'll never know.
And I came home with no money.
Because you made me spend a lot.
But I felt completely happy.
Because you're the best friend I've got.
~
2 sleepovers this summer,
and both we tried to stay awake.
And then we fell asleep and learned
we overslept, the very next day.
Watched our favorite series
for hours and hours on end.
Laughed until our stomachs hurt.
At a lot of things
the characters said.
Played games and we kept losing.
And we screamed when we did.
Then we cheated at Rush Hour.
Because we thought;
"Aw, to hell with it."
Made fun of all the people.
That don't matter at all.
"He misses me," you said.
And I guess he didn't have a clue.
That status message was for him
coming directly from you.
Squealing and sighing while watching,
and wishing guys like that existed.
Laughing at ourselves afterwards.
But saying; "hey, it could happen!"
And drinking too much coke
and wanting "that half of the donut!"
Those small bits and pieces.
Were what made all the difference.
~~~
Stopped over at your house,
And played a lot of games.
Laughing at the stupid fails,
and making fun of the Sims.
Ordered food and they thought
that you were a guy,
and you sighed and played along.
It was the same girl as last time,
and my God, she's still wrong.
Climbing up and down the stairs,
and making fun of that friend
that tripped down these.
And ending up tired
when we reached the end.
And trying to reach over
to get to the soles of your feet.
You screamed way too loud.
And wouldn't dare let me.
That late birthday present
was one of the best I received.
You probably have no idea.
How happy it made me.
~~~
This summer, I guess.
I loved the way
we talked all night.
Spent so many hours.
We talked about our lives.
We watched the night pull away.
Talked until it turned to day.
That night you got so scared.
By the sound at your door.
"It's probably a murderer"
But it was only your dog.
I laughed really hard,
but I guess I never told you.
That little did you know.
I was scared for you too.
Snuck around to stay up late.
Despite all my complaints.
To make sure I never got lonely.
And I wonder if you know.
How much that means to me.
Said so many random things
and hit you way too many times.
And thank you for letting me know
that I helped change your life.
~~~~~~
The snapshots of summer
play back in my mind.
I knew it would be great.
Now if only I could just
give this summer
a bit more time.
As the sunshine gets replaced
with droplets of rain.
Is it wrong for me to hate
that for now things
aren't going to be the same?
Butterfly Wings
He slowly crawled along
the weak tree branch.
Happy in his days.
Eating all these leaves.
The days passed by,
and in time he grew bored.
Because somehow he thought.
"There must be something more!"
He saw another one like him,
but it was gone short enough.
In a hard shell, and he wondered
if it was still alive.
And somehow he felt.
That maybe this was what
he wanted all this time.
Something new to do,
To try with this life.
So he hung upside down,
and the world looked different.
And soon it grew dark.
He stood there in fear
As his eyes slowly closed.
And before he knew it,
he woke up again.
The light was blinding,
he felt different.
And the air brushed against
what he now had.
He lifted himself up in the sky.
Felt the wind against his wings.
Against his face.
So this is what it was like.
To learn how to fly.
His colors brushed
against white clouds.
Against their blue background.
He felt the warmth
of the sunlight on his back.
He rested against a flower,
and breathed in his new life.
It was better than way back.
And he knew he was glad
That he decided to try.
///
She ran along the grassy fields.
Blowing bubbles as she did.
And she fell on a bed of flowers.
Spilling all the contents
of her bottle of soap.
Hair was brushed away,
and she saw bright greens and blues.
On the wings of a butterfly.
Against the pinks and purples.
Of the flower it was on.
And before she knew it
she reached out a hand to get it.
But suddenly she was kicked down.
By her brother who always seemed
to laugh at all the things she liked.
As he pulled away that butterfly.
He took it away, smiling the whole time.
As he kept it in a jar,
denying its right to fly.
And his laughter echoed in its ears.
As it watched the world around him
as it slowly died.
He kept it on a wall.
To preserve its pretty wings.
Its beauty was a curse.
It only got to fly once.
Looks like it wasn't a better life.
That poor, poor butterfly.
the weak tree branch.
Happy in his days.
Eating all these leaves.
The days passed by,
and in time he grew bored.
Because somehow he thought.
"There must be something more!"
He saw another one like him,
but it was gone short enough.
In a hard shell, and he wondered
if it was still alive.
And somehow he felt.
That maybe this was what
he wanted all this time.
Something new to do,
To try with this life.
So he hung upside down,
and the world looked different.
And soon it grew dark.
He stood there in fear
As his eyes slowly closed.
And before he knew it,
he woke up again.
The light was blinding,
he felt different.
And the air brushed against
what he now had.
He lifted himself up in the sky.
Felt the wind against his wings.
Against his face.
So this is what it was like.
To learn how to fly.
His colors brushed
against white clouds.
Against their blue background.
He felt the warmth
of the sunlight on his back.
He rested against a flower,
and breathed in his new life.
It was better than way back.
And he knew he was glad
That he decided to try.
///
She ran along the grassy fields.
Blowing bubbles as she did.
And she fell on a bed of flowers.
Spilling all the contents
of her bottle of soap.
Hair was brushed away,
and she saw bright greens and blues.
On the wings of a butterfly.
Against the pinks and purples.
Of the flower it was on.
And before she knew it
she reached out a hand to get it.
But suddenly she was kicked down.
By her brother who always seemed
to laugh at all the things she liked.
As he pulled away that butterfly.
He took it away, smiling the whole time.
As he kept it in a jar,
denying its right to fly.
And his laughter echoed in its ears.
As it watched the world around him
as it slowly died.
He kept it on a wall.
To preserve its pretty wings.
Its beauty was a curse.
It only got to fly once.
Looks like it wasn't a better life.
That poor, poor butterfly.
With Me
Your memories linger here,
and thoughts of you won't leave.
I just can't shake this feeling.
That you're meant to be with me.
I know I made my mistakes,
but why can't you understand?
I'm trying to explain,
I'm doing the best I can.
So I guess what you're saying
is that's too late now.
And I missed my shot,
But can't I get another one somehow?
And can you honestly promise me
he'd make you feel the same way?
Make you laugh when you're about to cry.
Tell you you're beautiful everyday?
Will he understand you,
despite all the flaws you have?
Love you more because of them,
Can you at least promise me that?
So stop telling me it's unfair
that I still want you with me.
Because I know deep inside,
I'm the one who can make you happy.
and thoughts of you won't leave.
I just can't shake this feeling.
That you're meant to be with me.
I know I made my mistakes,
but why can't you understand?
I'm trying to explain,
I'm doing the best I can.
So I guess what you're saying
is that's too late now.
And I missed my shot,
But can't I get another one somehow?
And can you honestly promise me
he'd make you feel the same way?
Make you laugh when you're about to cry.
Tell you you're beautiful everyday?
Will he understand you,
despite all the flaws you have?
Love you more because of them,
Can you at least promise me that?
So stop telling me it's unfair
that I still want you with me.
Because I know deep inside,
I'm the one who can make you happy.
Two Truths
Once again, after another
set of tears and pointless screams.
You hold me in your arms.
Like everything's alright.
You tell me that you're sorry.
And at long last.
We're not fighting tonight.
Your lips meet mine
and it's hard to breathe again.
It's easy to forgive you
when I forget the rest of the world.
And for tonight, I guess.
I'll believe everything you say.
That I'll always be
your number one girl.
You're smiling and I guess
I wish this'll last forever.
These moments you remind me
why I put up with all you do.
Even when everyone tells me
that I deserve better than you.
Tonight, everything's fine.
As I stand here surrounded
by your arms, and I feel safe.
Like no one can hurt me
with you by my side.
But you probably know
how easy it is to hurt me.
With a few simple lies.
I give you another chance.
And I know despite what I say
that this isn't the last.
You promise me you'll try harder
This time it'll work.
And we laugh at how stupid we were
when we were fighting yesterday.
And hey, maybe it's true.
We'll finally be okay.
But then the next day,
it happens all again.
Tonight we're screaming
and fighting. And once again,
I'm just cursing your name.
I wish you the best.
With the rest of your life.
I promise you that
I never want to see you.
And through all the shouting
You say you hate me too.
And I can tell you're running to her.
Breaking my heart even more.
But then you come back
Apologizing even more than before.
And I know deep down that maybe
I'll always forgive you.
Have this weak spot
no matter what it is you do.
Because despite what they say
I know the only truth you tell
is when you tell me you love me.
And when you tell me that you're sorry.
And tonight I'll pretend
like you didn't hurt me again.
And again, I'll believe it.
And you'll be fully forgiven.
I love you too much
maybe for my own good.
And I can never stay angry.
Just because of your only two truths.
set of tears and pointless screams.
You hold me in your arms.
Like everything's alright.
You tell me that you're sorry.
And at long last.
We're not fighting tonight.
Your lips meet mine
and it's hard to breathe again.
It's easy to forgive you
when I forget the rest of the world.
And for tonight, I guess.
I'll believe everything you say.
That I'll always be
your number one girl.
You're smiling and I guess
I wish this'll last forever.
These moments you remind me
why I put up with all you do.
Even when everyone tells me
that I deserve better than you.
Tonight, everything's fine.
As I stand here surrounded
by your arms, and I feel safe.
Like no one can hurt me
with you by my side.
But you probably know
how easy it is to hurt me.
With a few simple lies.
I give you another chance.
And I know despite what I say
that this isn't the last.
You promise me you'll try harder
This time it'll work.
And we laugh at how stupid we were
when we were fighting yesterday.
And hey, maybe it's true.
We'll finally be okay.
But then the next day,
it happens all again.
Tonight we're screaming
and fighting. And once again,
I'm just cursing your name.
I wish you the best.
With the rest of your life.
I promise you that
I never want to see you.
And through all the shouting
You say you hate me too.
And I can tell you're running to her.
Breaking my heart even more.
But then you come back
Apologizing even more than before.
And I know deep down that maybe
I'll always forgive you.
Have this weak spot
no matter what it is you do.
Because despite what they say
I know the only truth you tell
is when you tell me you love me.
And when you tell me that you're sorry.
And tonight I'll pretend
like you didn't hurt me again.
And again, I'll believe it.
And you'll be fully forgiven.
I love you too much
maybe for my own good.
And I can never stay angry.
Just because of your only two truths.
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